Sleeping on Sandwiches - Day 14

Sleeping on Sandwiches - Day 14

The Posture Police Blotter was on hiatus for awhile and I've revived it with a daily blog that is running from June 20 through September 22. This daily edition has a different focus to it and the gem in all of this is that what I'm going to be writing and what I've written about posture and the Alexander Technique are all related. Follow along and learn how!
 
What My Kids See Me Doing

Last night I sat down to write a quick post before going to bed, but given my fatigue at 1:30am, I stared at the screen for about 10 minutes and drew a blank.  I decided to sleep and to pick up the blank page on my subway ride in the morning, which is what I'm doing.  I blog daily this summer, so long as it doesn't interfere with what inspired me to write Sleeping on Sandwiches in the first place - my family.

I've found that it's easy to turn professional/creative endeavors into an escape, and it can easily sneak up on me.  The kids are watching a video and I think - Oh well, I'd rather they do something else, but while they are watching this I'll catch up on some email or blog.  This blog is one part of a summer resolution to face problems at home and to be present with my partner kids.  When I feel the urge to retreat into my computer while the kids are into a video, I stop myself and choose something else - I clean something, read a book, or what I've especially been enjoying recently - I make something.

I have a box full of rectangles of felt in a variety of colors that I've collected over the years - leftover from various theatre projects that I've been involved in. I have a sewing kit that belonged to my grandmother full of thread, buttons, and sewing implements.  Using my knowledge of how to sew a basic stitch, I've made felt puppets, sock puppets, and a handbag over the past several weeks.  Even if my kids just watch me work, it's a very different experience than watching Mama type emails.  My five-year-old even said a few weeks ago as I was finishing up a Goldilocks puppet, "Mama, you're an expert sew-er."   Neither of my kids has ever complimented me on being an expert typist or mouse-clicker.

I also feel great when I take on these craft projects and it reminds me how exhausting and disorienting it can be to stare at a screen.  In both cases, I'm using my hands and eyes, be the experiences are vastly different.  When I'm making stuff, I sit up straighter, breathe easier, and feel much more comfortable and aware of my body.

I love to write, but I'm not such a fan of using a computer for an extended period of time.  I appreciate what the internet has to offer, but simultaneously feel sucked in and disembodied in an abstract world.  I'm working on harmonizing the pleasure of writing, interest in using the internet, and simultaneous desire to spend most of my day away from a screen and for my kids to see me doing mostly non-screen things.

Do you experience similar conflicts in regards to using technology? 
More on screens and kids in the next post.